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Well, I haven't had this problem, and I don't think that it's that common to be taunted by boys about something like that. It sounds particularly cruel and I'm sorry you had to go through that. School is hard enough without a problem like that...
Even though that kind of teasing of sometihng so personal is probably not a common occurrence, I'm pretty sure most girls are unsure about how they look down there. I mean it's not like we go around looking at other girls' bits closely to check what is most common or not. I think pretty much most girls are similar, it's like faces, we all have the same features but some have bigger noses, smaller eyes, rounder cheeks and so on.
Try to remember that this guy was most likely being spiteful and decided to do so in a terrible way - at 16, he can't have known very much about women anyway. Women come in all sorts of different forms and there is no better or worse. There is only preference, some men like it one way or another, and others will love you for who you are.
I have seen your threads in tilted exhibition and you have a beautiful body, I'm sure your vagina is as beautiful. At the end of the day, be happy with what you have, and though the humiliation must have been awful, it's up to you to be strong now and have confidence in your body. No-one can take that from you unless you let them.
Just so you know, I have been taunted in school about other things, not the same as you (being so skinny people would ask am I anorexic, being mocked because of having too much hair in places, being mocked because of wearing glasses, braces, having weird hair, small boobs, being told I'm so ugly no-one would ever want me...school was not kind to me either), so I do know to some degree what it's like to have hang-ups about physical appearance that never seem to go away. Some are still with me to this day...but don't let them tie you down. Just live your life fully and with no holding back, that's the best antidote.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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