surferlove007

This is a tough topic for me to discuss with myself, let alone JStrider or anyone for that matter. Growing up I dated this guy at 16 and when we slept together I had heard afterwords that he was making fun of how I looked downtown to alot of his friends from school. Immediately I cut things off only to be made fun of, humiliated, and what feels like permananently scarred from such an experience. Details. He told his friends I had a weird looking vagina because I had larger labia...leading to them calling me and texting me leaving awful messages. Was called beef lips, venus-fly-trap, and several other just very humiliating names. Made me think something was wrong with how I looked and emotionally scarred me till current times. It was such a tramatic experience at that age, makes it hard to open up. I don't feel comfortable being naked even with JS, I always want to have something covering me because I feel ashamed. I do hope a large number of girls have NOT gone through an emotionally scarring experience like this. Women have so much judgement passed on them already, these sort of things are just too much to handle in some cases. To be ridiculed for one of the most private parts of your body is a terrible thing, I don't know how to overcome the mental wall my mind put up about myself. I'm happy with myself except for my vagina, I just feel like its ugly and I don't want to look at it. I want/need to somehow get over tis mental block. It is so unpleasant and painful to think about. This guys friends would taunt me at school calling me beef lips in the hallway and just making fun of me and I don't know how to get over that humiliation. Since that event I haven't been completely comfortable being naked with anyone, not even myself to an extent. *Sigh*
Advice....stories?
I understand this is avery sensative area, but if anyone has had a similar experience and found a way through it, advice would be so helpful.