Originally Posted by Mister Coaster

I was just thinking about this the other day on my lunch hour walk. I got my degree in Illustration, and I really wish I was actually doing that for a living. As it is now, I'm a graphic artist at a market. I print signs, draw chalkboards and design posters/articles/menus for print. It pays the bills and is somewhat in the "artistic" field, but every once in a while, I feel like I could be doing so much more with myself. Every now and then I'll sit down to actually DRAW something and realize that I simply don't draw enough any more.

The really sucky part is the fact that I'm really good at the job I'm doing. I recently changed locations (moved from Cali to Colorado) and managed to land the store graphic artist position. (same position I had when I left Cali) Everyone here tells me that the last guy was really good, but I blow him away. I have won awards, been the regional supervisor, taught workshops, written training manuals blah, blah freakin' blah. But when I look at places like Deviant Art and all the phenomonial art being produced by working illustrators, I just hang my head in "shame" knowing that I have the ability to do that, but have never persued it.

I guess call it underachieving, but like I said, it pays the bills and I can support myself and my family. I can't help but thinking I was "supposed" to be doing more. Meh.