surferlove007

Follow-Up on my procedure

My colposcopy was this morning and the experience was mentally scarring.
I went in at 9:15 and left about 10:15 so it was overall about an hour. Well to start off I had about three different doctors in the room to help with the procedure and they were people whom I had never met, atleast they were ladies. They asked if a male doctor in training could watch and I immediately said no, more people have seen the goods downstairs more than I wanted already, no extras please. I'm pretty self concious about how I look down there anyway. Continueing, they inserted a metal spectrum but then they couldn't get it to focus on my cervix, resulting in them turning it in several directions and jiggling it trying to find my hiding cervix. I felt like saying to them, well if you were trying to poke me with that thing I'd hide too!
I'm starting to think my pain threshold is really low as the second time they reinserted a plastic, longer spectrum it really hurt and my eyes started tearing up. Of course, the search for my cervix continued. They won't up giggling this one several times again still with no luck. Everytime they giggled it it hurt me and my muscles would tense up. One of the nurses yelled at me and said I was making it more difficult because I kept tensing up everytime they reinserted the damn thing. I felt like yelling at them to take it out and get someone who knows what they're doing to do the job right.
Finally, after seven tries they got a hold of my cervix and put the vinegar on. The vinegar burned like salt in a wound, probably from all that poking they did beforehand. They only found one small part of mild dysplasia on my cervix and took a chunk of it. Of course when they were trying to get a piece the spectrum kept moving and therefore losing track of my cervix yet again so again with the reinserting and jiggling. Ouch. I was crying after the vinegar and the multiple reinsertions. I was also mentally apologizing to my vagina for putting her through this mess.
So they finally almost got a chunk of the cells for a biopsy, then of course it didn't come off, was just hanging on by a thread. The feeling was much more than a pinch, it was an immense amount of pain. Made me cry more, finally the third try they got the piece they needed, then scraped the inside of my damn cervix and pulled out all the instruments.
I wound up crying until I got back to my dorm, it was just really awful. Especially the lady yelling at me during the whole thing.
One said it was one of the hardest she ahd to do because my cervix was a little higher than most womens.
Unfortunately I had to go alone, I had arranged for JS to take make but he needed to study before he went to work and that's more important than sitting in a waiting room. Would of been nice to have the moral support after the procedure as I was pretty shaken up when leaving the office, still crying and such. I felt like everyone was watching me as I was leaving. Got back to my dorm and went to sleep tilll about thirty minutes ago.
I feel a little better but everytime I start thinking about it I feel like crying. Just glad to get it written out.
Also the doctor said i couldn't have sex for three days? Makes me wonder. She said I would bleed most likely for several days but then be fine. She also said it was fine to reinsert my nuvering after the procedure to stay on schedule with my birth control. So I guess three days till sex? Doesn't sound right to me.