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Okay... apart from the future, how do you FEEL about this? I mean, let's say you knew you were going to die in a few months, for whatever reason. Would doing this help you feel more fulfilled, more alive? Or would it be something that you regretted and made you feel like you had wasted the last months of your life?
What I am asking is for you to forget about the "shame" factor, and just try to figure out what appeals to you about this. If it is TRULY only the money, then I say NO, don't do it. There are other places to get money, alright? But if the idea of having sex for money is something that turns you on, something that just totally gets you going, then maybe that is the reason you want to do it... and I would say that is pretty much valid, as far as I know.
Don't let fears of "no money" drive you to do something you aren't comfortable with... but on the other hand, if it's not about the money, don't let fears of a future, frowning husband keep you from doing something that you really WANT to do. It really depends on your motives.
And no matter who you marry or end up with long-term, I would expect that they would understand your motives more than anyone else. It's not as if you'd be cheating on them; you're single now, correct? But here is another thought: would you want to know if your husband had done something like this? What would you think about him, if you did? I think that's where your answer lies...
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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
--Khalil Gibran
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