johnsimon885

There are a few things about this story that, before it's all cleared up and behind me, are going to drive me crazy. The first is that she was not on the pill, and claimed that spermicide gave her irritation, so neither were used, which was a first for me. The other thing that concerns me is that, being a realist, there may have been a little risk involved before actually having sex, as in before the condom was actually found and used. Not a lot, but enough to make a guy worry.

So, yeah, there are a handful of things I would love! to be able to change to make myself a little more confident right now. we were being careful about the timing of things, so the risk was in "safe"-ish times..though I know not to take that too seriously...but I have been propping myself up mostly on the fact that her period was not just a little bleeding, as I have heard can happen for the entire time, but two substantial periods. sorry, dear reader, if you didn't want the details. From everything they taught me in school, doesn't pregnancy not work that way?

...I guess we'll find out. At the very least, I've learned a whole lot from this...I just hope God gives me a chance to put my new information to good use. I'll look back on myself now as being young and stupid whatever happens, but I hope it works out.

although, I'm happy to add, there are plenty of reasons her cycle might be off. There has been lots of stress and flying and new foods and all sorts of things, so I have my fingers crossed!