okay,
i am sorry but there were a lot of responses and i was in the mood to just browse the forums.
i slept with my, now girlfriend, on the first technical date. later i proposed... i tohught everything was going well bu then i had a medical problem and had episodes where i couldnt remember anything or anyone (except her) and this put a strain on our relationship and it broke. we stayed apart for only two months and then got back together... i hve since forgiven her for hurting me and we are now happy again... actually even happier than before.
the reason that this is significant is to address the second post in the forum... i believe that she will never cheat on me... she has had chances and i am sure she has not taken them... i am scared as hell that she will but i feel i will be alright.
but i cant see myself spending the rest of my life with anyone but her... i love her.