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I had a major breakthrough today, and I only hope that it's a permanent one. I decided to eat at a different table in the cafeteria today, which is a major change for me, and I didn't talk much. I get in these moods where I just observe stuff, and get all introverted. Normally, I would get self concious about my introversion, but lately, it has been different. I use those times to learn.
Anyhow, a very, very good looking girl that I had never met before was talking to me. I chose to ignore her. I eventually decided to talk, when she said that I am too quiet. I replied with something short and funny, and continued to be quiet. She kept trying to get my attention, and I would, very obviously, as if I were teasing her, not talk. This went on for a few minutes, and she started using very sexual language.
I chose to be unimpressed, because, honestly, I wasn't, and it bugged the crap out of her. Eventually, her she and her equally hot friends left, and instead of feeling like crap, I was proud of myself.
I had done what I want to do, not what I thought others wanted me to do. Later, one of her friends came up to me, and told me that all of the girls thought I am extremely hot.
Somehow, I have noticed other changes in myself. I'm already, very quickly gaining weight, my posture is getting better, and I'm able to say "no". People that I don't know are saying "hi" to me, and I'm beginning to feel like a different person. I had no idea that it could happen so fast.
Here's hoping that I continue on this upward trend.
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"If you can hear this whispering you are dying."- Pink Floyd
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