In my teens and early 20's I attempted 3 serious suicide attempts requiring hospitalisation. Each time within 24 hours of being in the hospital I got my period. These were not light attempts either, 2 in intesive care. So I answered number 1. For a few years I was diagosed as bi polar and depressed and medicated to the hilt which only made things worse. It was then that I looked back on my suicidal history. You would think being in a hospital bed telling the doctor but Im usually Ok, I dont know why I did it, the nurse aware I have a pad in my knickers that they didn't and I didnt put 2 and 2 together.
At 16 I lived with my grandparents for a year, one morning a little stack of vitamins appeared at the breakfast table next to my OJ. They took their multis every day and when I questioned why suddenly I had to my grandmother said it was just compliment whatever I was missing because I was growing up so fast. It wasn't until they were about to send me home to my mum that Grandma admitted it was for pms but didnt work anyway.
I was so grateful to see this thread, this suffering for between 7 and 10 days every month even on BC can be overwhelming to say the least. I dont count on it, I pretend it wont happen this time and then I start to feel its onslaught. The hot flushes, every noise in the house feeling an electric shock, feeling like my hearts beating at 200 painful beats a minute. I pick every little fault my partner has and turn it into a major relationship issue.
Im aware enough to make my partner aware its here and I dont allow anything to get me to a point of suicidal thinking anymore. But Im sure theres other women out there that suffer just as badly. Its kind of like childbirth in the way that it goes out of my head once its over. But when its happening its like every 2 hours is bound to be left with horrible remorseful feeling, having to appologise for something or just wanting to crawl back into bed and pretend the world doesnt exist. I know now its hormones, Ive talked to doctors, gotten the vitamin, evening primrose, exercise, avoid alcohol routine, but none of it seems to make any difference. I read a few posts in this thread that were short but admitting to choosing the first option. My thoughts are with you and your loved ones
The above is something Im not proud to admit, especially being a newbie but its the first time Ive seen it addressed in a forum. Well done for the womens only idea.