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I'm a year older than you so I can't speak much from experience but I highly doubt that 2 decades of existence are enough to base the remainder of your existence upon.
I've felt the same way before and I realized that everything seemed so bleak because I hadn't completely realized that my life is my own to maintain. It's not so much about the rest of the world as it is about you and your feelings of discontent probably stem from a need for change - change that only you can facilitate.
I'm most certain that you're going through a transitional period right now. Just try to stay positive and focus mainly on the fact that things will be better once the answers come and the steps towards positive change become more apparent.
However, feeling suicidal is reason enough to consider professional help. As a college student you should be able to find plenty of on-campus assistance. I can not stress this further...
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