Sage

ngdawg hit it on the head. I too have had this kind of anxiety- it's hard... sitting there inside you like a snake coiling and biting your heart, making it hard to breathe... and you feel like the only thing you can think about is the anxiety, which only makes it worse. However, you hit the nail on the head earlier with your bike riding. Getting out and DOING something drives the anxiety away.

When you let someone become "your everything," then you aren't leaving any room in your life for your own personal growth. You come to rely on someone else more and more to tell you what to do, who to be, how to think... and then when that person goes away (as they inevetiably will), you don't know what to do. Right now you're anxious because you centered your whole world around this one person, when you should be centering your world around YOU. YOU ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN YOUR LIFE. You will never betray you, you will always love you and be there for you. Focus on YOU. Ride your bike more. Go to school and get a good education. BREATHE. It's going to be hard, but work at it every day, and it will get better quickly. Promise

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