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Ch'i · 09-01-2006, 11:38 PM

I was just finishing 2nd semester of 6th grade when I finally hooked up with one of my best friends, which was a lonnggg time coming. A few weeks after I found out I was moving to San Jose. Me and her really liked each other, but she moved at almost the same time, and we just ended up losing touch. I moved from Lodi, near Stockton, so the culture shock was pretty substantial. With that, and the regret, I had a hard time adjusting. I came out of my shell after a few weeks and became the hilarious chubby kid, and I kicked ass at break-time football, so I was content. I still felt like something was missing though. And then I found online games and got damn addicted; I would get withdraw & depression when I wasn't playing, and would normally play for around 6-10 hours a day. I was already chubby, but with that depression I also turned to comfort eating. After about two-three years of this I was unable to focus, depressed when I wasn't playing my game, very overweight, with declining grades. I then had the reflection day too. I sat there remembering "the one that got away" and how pathetic I would have looked to her then, and realized how I was insulating myself in order to avoid my problems. I then took a good look in the mirror and saw how fat I'd gotten. Wouldn't call that one a good day!

I deleted the game, destroyed the cd, burnt the cd key, and went cold turkey, which, by the way, is NOT as delicious as it sounds. So that was pretty much that, aside from a few relapses here and there. I talked to my parents about letting me try martial arts, and because I hadn't really done any sports before or anything (martial arts is NOT a sport by the way), they agreed. What I learned through martial arts and my instructor had a profound impact on me. If you've seen any of my other posts, you'd know that I highly regard martial arts, and that's because alot of what I know, and who I am today was learned through martial arts. Since then I've lost 56 pounds, got some self-confidence back, and bought my first car (the other love of my life, which died today

). Aside from the car...things are going good. I have always hoped that I might find that girl again someday. Who knows.

09-01-2006, 11:38 PM	#3 (permalink)
Ch'i Artist of Life	I was just finishing 2nd semester of 6th grade when I finally hooked up with one of my best friends, which was a lonnggg time coming. A few weeks after I found out I was moving to San Jose. Me and her really liked each other, but she moved at almost the same time, and we just ended up losing touch. I moved from Lodi, near Stockton, so the culture shock was pretty substantial. With that, and the regret, I had a hard time adjusting. I came out of my shell after a few weeks and became the hilarious chubby kid, and I kicked ass at break-time football, so I was content. I still felt like something was missing though. And then I found online games and got damn addicted; I would get withdraw & depression when I wasn't playing, and would normally play for around 6-10 hours a day. I was already chubby, but with that depression I also turned to comfort eating. After about two-three years of this I was unable to focus, depressed when I wasn't playing my game, very overweight, with declining grades. I then had the reflection day too. I sat there remembering "the one that got away" and how pathetic I would have looked to her then, and realized how I was insulating myself in order to avoid my problems. I then took a good look in the mirror and saw how fat I'd gotten. Wouldn't call that one a good day! I deleted the game, destroyed the cd, burnt the cd key, and went cold turkey, which, by the way, is NOT as delicious as it sounds. So that was pretty much that, aside from a few relapses here and there. I talked to my parents about letting me try martial arts, and because I hadn't really done any sports before or anything (martial arts is NOT a sport by the way), they agreed. What I learned through martial arts and my instructor had a profound impact on me. If you've seen any of my other posts, you'd know that I highly regard martial arts, and that's because alot of what I know, and who I am today was learned through martial arts. Since then I've lost 56 pounds, got some self-confidence back, and bought my first car (the other love of my life, which died today ). Aside from the car...things are going good. I have always hoped that I might find that girl again someday. Who knows. Last edited by Ch'i; 09-02-2006 at 01:09 AM..