You sure sound like you need some stress relief. I would be so frazzled after all that. I know it feels like they've won but really your goal was to be smoke free right? I hope you can still get the training you need in the department you are in. Maybe you'll get to know some more decent mature people in there instead of petty, addicted, immature, female dogs.
Hugs
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My Karma just ran over your Dogma.