Ch'i

I see my hand, it waves farewell
Dismissed of thoughts both fond and fell
To this great day I sought no more
to prove to them what I once swore
That lo a challenege may insue
Volition required I must pursue
'Til then I saw the task I laid
for hence my eyes began to fade
And then it came to me.
a feeling

There was a shudder
Mearly a mutter
simply a flutter
constant and utter
A feeling like no other
Clenched between my soul and heart
a bitter sensation both sweet and tart
It froze my legs and burned my mind
It softened me for there to find
a hope to bind
intwined it shined so bright to blind
Contrived within and well inclined
I forced and tried, vivified
The conflict now, to fight or flight?
From dark I came to sun's reprise
My plight now known
a subtle demise
My eyes regained the light around
to see it's presence fray and cloud
It struck me then where I was weak
the voice inside now ill and bleak
I took this chance and changed its stance
for now I'd snapped beneath the trance
To think this life was not my fate
I cursed it's name before I bate
It soothed the scathe for me to see
my effort brought me victory

Flowing with the water
blood beside me
a raven beside it
I watch the clouds and sun in the river
and feel as if I were swimming with them
Where blood and death are waiting
like a raven in the sky.