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Hi madp,
I have a question for you so here goes.
I grew up in an alcoholic/drug addicted family. Both my parents, there second, and third marriages, and numerous boyfriends and girlfriends all were raging drunks/addicts. Three of my five brothers also struggle with these same problems, and so do various aunts, uncles, and cousines.
I rarely drink, maybe twice a year, but even then it's still only light social drinking. Bieng around alcohol or even just the thought of it gives me severe anxiety. I am really actually jealous of people who can drink and have fun, because I feel I have been cheated.
Now here is the problem, every man I meet turns out to be an alcoholic. It's almost like a sick joke. And no, I am not picking them up in clubs or bars. I really try to screen them, but it seems its always hidden at first. There must be be something subconscious I am doing/looking for. I know I have a co-dependant personality, but I swear I make a conscious effort to avoid these situations.
Of course I wonder if it could just be that my image of alcohol is severly distorted?
I dont know if you can give me any advice, but I thought I would put it out there. Thanks.
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