Originally Posted by lurkette
I have a kind of different perspective on this. It's kind of "woo-woo" and sometimes gets me in trouble when I try to explain it to people.
All there is, is love.
It's not a question of deserving it, it's a question of being open to it and seeing it for what it is.
In my cosmology, we enter into physical being in agreement with the other physical beings around us, and we make "contracts" with them to show us certian experiences, to teach us certain lessons. Those contracts are made by our subconscious "higher selves" in and of love. How they play out in life doesn't always look like what we as limited, physically manifested human beings conceive of as "love." Sometimes they look just the opposite.
I think about my family, and the struggles that came with living with an addicted father and a depressed mother. There was suffering and hardship and anger, but I was never so miserable as when I was resenting all of that. When I could see the lessons I learned from the situation, and how they shaped me into the person I am, I could let go of the resentment and the negative stories about myself and recognize the love behind everything that happened, and have compassion for the rest of my family.
So if you ask "do I deserve love," the answer is yes. Most importantly, you deserve your own unconditional love. And you deserve the love of the universe, and the love that you came here to find, however that looks.
If you are asking instead "do I deserve attention, validation, sympathy, agreement, and permanence," and calling that "love," that's a different story.
I have no idea if any of this is "true." I have seen and heard and experienced things that make this "feel" true, but most importantly this concept of love has let me release so many of the negative patterns that have hampered me in my life - kept me from fulfilling my potential, from being happy, from being open to love as it is expressed by others around me and not as I think it should be.
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