my heart is numb i've been dwelling on this so much that i don't know what to think/feel anymore. I don't want to move and then everytime we argue be reminded of how far i am from my family and why...then i think what if i call home one day and the whole fam is over for a bbq GOD!!! I will miss out on watching the kids grow up. But then again there are planes and the internet and phones.... we are never going to be financially set in NY, we bearly get by now and we work a lot, which creates so much stress b/w us. I want a better life for me and my SO and i know Texas will give us that, it's just...giving up the family is a high price to pay...i'm emotionally and mentaly confused
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