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MEAD · 06-25-2006, 03:32 PM

Hey guys, I'm mainly lurker, but I post infrequently when I feel like I can help or if I've got a problem. Well, I've got a problem.

Maybe about a month ago I tried marijuana for the first time. I didn't do it for any reason inparticular. I was invited to and just thought "What the hell." I had no intention of ever doing it again. My older sister had abused drugs for a time when I was in middle and highschool. It caused a lot of arugments in my family and effected me more than i probably admit. So I never wanted to become like she was. Anyways despite my disdain for how marijuana can hurt people, I tried it. I took a few hits with two of my friends and after I few minutes I went into a intense panic attack that lasted hours. Luckily my friends were there for me to get me through it. I thought I was losing my mind and was incredbily scared. I woke up the next morning still not feeling right. I had a sense that things werent exactly real. I was somehow removed from reality. I had trouble concerntrating and was anxious and worrisome about it all. It was not very pleasent. Eventuallt over the course of a fews days those worries disappeared and my life went basicly back to normal.

However, a few days ago I was overcome with that same fear that I was losing my grip on reality, perhaps in danger of losing my mind. (Going crazy has always been my worst fear.) I don't know what triggered this. I was just watching T.V. when it hit me. Now for the past few days I've been anxious and worrisome like I was after after I had that marijuana induced panic attack. There are times where it doesnt bother me that much. I can function normally and tell myself that I'm not crazy, but there is just this naggin feeling that is constantly bothering me and I don't knwo how to put it away.

My older sister, the one I previously was talking about, has had problems with anxiety and has been on zoloft. I'm thinking now that might have an anxitey disorder as well that was latent until these recent events.

I'm just curious to know if anyone has dealt with this before. Or if anyone has any good advice. Thanks.

06-25-2006, 03:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
MEAD Insane Location: South Florida	Anxiety or something else? Hey guys, I'm mainly lurker, but I post infrequently when I feel like I can help or if I've got a problem. Well, I've got a problem. Maybe about a month ago I tried marijuana for the first time. I didn't do it for any reason inparticular. I was invited to and just thought "What the hell." I had no intention of ever doing it again. My older sister had abused drugs for a time when I was in middle and highschool. It caused a lot of arugments in my family and effected me more than i probably admit. So I never wanted to become like she was. Anyways despite my disdain for how marijuana can hurt people, I tried it. I took a few hits with two of my friends and after I few minutes I went into a intense panic attack that lasted hours. Luckily my friends were there for me to get me through it. I thought I was losing my mind and was incredbily scared. I woke up the next morning still not feeling right. I had a sense that things werent exactly real. I was somehow removed from reality. I had trouble concerntrating and was anxious and worrisome about it all. It was not very pleasent. Eventuallt over the course of a fews days those worries disappeared and my life went basicly back to normal. However, a few days ago I was overcome with that same fear that I was losing my grip on reality, perhaps in danger of losing my mind. (Going crazy has always been my worst fear.) I don't know what triggered this. I was just watching T.V. when it hit me. Now for the past few days I've been anxious and worrisome like I was after after I had that marijuana induced panic attack. There are times where it doesnt bother me that much. I can function normally and tell myself that I'm not crazy, but there is just this naggin feeling that is constantly bothering me and I don't knwo how to put it away. My older sister, the one I previously was talking about, has had problems with anxiety and has been on zoloft. I'm thinking now that might have an anxitey disorder as well that was latent until these recent events. I'm just curious to know if anyone has dealt with this before. Or if anyone has any good advice. Thanks. __________________ Here are some phrases I'd like to be able to say, in all honesty, before I die. "That's it, send out the ninjas!" "So then I had to kill my way to the second floor."