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I'm not hiding anything. I wasn't there to help and share in the happiness of the birth of our children and that is the huge thing she hates me for. She says it was the saddest time when it should have been the happiest. I mean I was there but I wasn't really interested. My career choice is one of young people. All these people have no families and can literally live their job. At the time I really felt that my family was holding me back. So when I was home I was snappy, resentful, and pissed off. When she insisted we do family type thing I would basically ruin them with my bitching about having to be there the whole time. She said the day she finally snapped was when she realized that there was no point in looking forward to the weekends because I'd be home and those days were worse. I was fucked in the head to put my job in front of them. I do feel very guilty and sorry about it because not only did I ruin that special time for her but I ruined it for my children and myself.
There was no physical abuse if that's what you're getting at. I guess there was neglect on my part. But she is a strong willed woman. If I was to ever harm her or the kids she'd be gone without a doubt. Instanly. Not that the thought ever even crossed my mind. I'd never even consider that.
Sorry about getting pissy on that last post. I was upset because I'm so happy things are doing well and didn't want shot down.. Thanks agains for the comments everyone.
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