Thanks, Owl.
I guess a lot of my reaction is rooted in the fact that other than one, foolish one-night stand, I have only really been with one person... and he's totally clean. I just feel like these abnormal pap smears are a constant reminder of how irresponsible I was to get drunk and blacked out with a group of people I didn't know (only once in my life), and screwed up royally enough to possibly get HPV. I just really hope I don't have it.
But I know ktspktsp totally supports me and never judges me
, which is invaluable... and we will get through this no matter what the results.