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Well, here we go again, folks. I had an abnormal pap about a year ago, went back in several times to get it checked, and everything was fine.
Had my annual last week, and guess what: abnormal again, this time more seriously (whatever that means). They want to do a colposcopy, which scares the shit out of me since hearing other TFP women talk about it.
The nurse told me to take 2 Advil about an hour before the procedure; is that going to be enough???
And what if I have HPV. And what if I gave it to ktspktsp. And what if, what if, what if. What if I get cervical cancer.
I know, my mind is running wild, but I HATE hearing this kind of news. I need to focus on the fact that I haven't heard any results yet, that it might be a fluke, that I might be okay. Or that I might have HPV, but it won't kill me or ktspktsp. Please tell me that will be the case.
/tries to take a deep breath...
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for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
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