savvypup

Hi All

Ok, I'm kind of really upset at the moment and not sure where to start. I joined TFP, because I thought it would be a great place to ask advice, give advice and be open with things I can't really discuss with other people and so far you've all been a fantastic help.

I posted a response to a thread on why we want what we can't have. I replied with nothing strange, just purely how I felt about someone. Now another person I was involved with prior to any of this happening, has logged in and read all my threads and has basically written me an email abusing me for feeling this way. He has looked up this person and now knows everything about them (he's a cop). I feel so on edge because I feel like I'm being constantly watched. He's even told me that he contemplated hurting himself. How is this suppose to make me feel?

Am I a bad person for having these feelings? A part of me feels like I should justify my feelings and another part of me says fuck him, that was how I felt at that time. Feelings change right? I know it's all here for everyone to read, I wouldn't have posted it I didn't expect people to read it, but they're my feelings right, I don't think I deserve to have them thrown back in my face.

And right now I'm really worked up, because I don't know how to even attempt to try and forgive this person for what they've done. Any suggestions everyone? I dwell on this sort of stuff alot.

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ciao bella!