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Personally I think there is nothing inherantly wrong about what you did. I think that your reasons for doing it are what are causing you the most guilt. Others here have said it better than I could have. Work through your self-esteem issues and forget about this adventure. I wouldn't try it again, at least not until you have your self-esteem and depression problems worked out.
I find that having sex with multiple people or strangers gives me an adrenaline high as well as other feel-good hormones that make me feel good. It's putting a finger in the dike but you gotta pull that finger out eventually and those emotions will flood back in undealt with and make you feel worse than before.
I agree with others that you should seek counseling to help you work through things. Good Luck
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