You can't fill that hole in your self-concept with penis, however fun (or not fun) that may be. You need to work on youself, and the best way I can see to do that would be with the help of someone who is trained to do that. It sounds like you have a lot of negative self-talk going on. I have a friend who was depressed for a very long time that did that, and once she started talking to a therapist she got her issues worked out the way she wanted to and she is much better for it.
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