1. I'm currently at 152 - I was up to 160 about 2 months ago. I want to get back down to at least 135 or maybe even 130. I'm a size 10 now and just over a year ago I was a size 6.
2. I've tried a few simple diets but find it frustrating for a couple of reasons. I don't have time to count calories. I don't have the money to buy everything on the menu that a certain diet suggests. OR I get sick of the flavors of foods in a particular diet really quickly.
3. My weight rose in the last year so rapidly. I had 3 surgeries and one broken foot which restricted my movements as many movements were painful. My injuries were all spaced about 2-3 months apart which barely left me time to heal and get back into an exercise routine before I was hurting again. This led me into a downward spiral of lethargy. I have less muscle mass than before and less energy. This makes it harder to get motivated to exercise. My diet has changed very little from what it was over a year ago. My activity level has changed drastically. Also before I never specifically exercised for more than about 15 minutes a day because I didn't have time. BUT I road the bike with the kids to the park, I ran outside with the kids, I did the goofy dance with the kids, or many other energetic activities. Now I find myself running with the kids for barely a couple minutes and I'm tired, winded, and begging to take a break.
4. Nothing is a real motivation. I can't afford to pay to go to the club to exercise. I don't even know if I'd have the time. I don't like how I look but it's not that bad. I can't fit into some of my better jeans but I'm not that hung up on clothes. I guess my biggest motivator is my mother. She's horribly fat and my aversion to becoming what she is probably produces the strongest feeling in me. But it's still a negative feeling and more depressing than motivating. I don't know what to choose as my motivation. I've read lots of things suggesting picking out a favorite pair of pants and trying them on weekly, or hanging a picture of when you looked really good, or something like that. I've tried them. That particular motivation usually wears off in about a week.
I'm frustrated. I like the idea of holding each other accountable but I'm afraid I won't stick with it. I've sortof come to the conclusion that I've just gotta put more of those little spurts of exercise into my day but that means I have to constantly be thinking about dieting. It feels terribly depressing and gets old quick. Any ideas would REALLY be appreciated.
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