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chriswin8 · 04-29-2006, 10:06 PM

Hello everyone... Sorry i have not been around things have been a bit crazy... God I dont even know where to begin.

Well Trisha never got out on the 27th she had to stay for another 2 weeks. 2 weeks after that she went for her first hearing. They told her that she had 3 months to comply with everything on a list that they gave her. You know appartment, stable job, some other things.

Mommy Days : post hearing...
For the first week she was always on time to see the girls. Trisha seemed to be be doing alright, untill one day megan got scared by her and ran to me. The next mommy day she never showed, and didnt call. I called her no answer, i left a message. I called the worker and told her she didnt show. Two days later I am at work and about 11 or so i get a call from the worker, trisha had killed herself. I guess Megan running to me made her snap or something. There was no note, I really hope it wasnt my fault.

The girls are doing ok, I still have them... I am glad that the girls didnt understand what was going on. Or at the least I hope they didnt... I tried to explain that god needed her to help with the kids up there. Hehehe... Hayley asked if she could go to gods playtime. I almost lost it. Its taken me this long to get over it myself.

I am conflicted, if i would have forgiven her for cheating the second time none of this would have happend. Trisha and I would be married and the girls would have there mother. Am I a bad person... I am in the process of adopting the girls, and about that i couldnt be happier, and that makes me feel guilty.

Its funny what having kids can do. One day your thinking of getting a boat the next you have 2 kids and the thought of a boat is laughable.

Here is a bright star... I don't have the nanny, she kinda turned into my very serious girlfriend that lives with me. Last week she called and quit the agency... I was in the mall the other day and relised I was looking at engagement rings again. Its funny how somethings work out.

let me tell you if not for Ashly and my Mother. I think i would have lost my mind with all this.

What do I tell the girls when they get older about there mother.

04-29-2006, 10:06 PM	#60 (permalink)
chriswin8 Tilted Location: Buffalo NY	Hello everyone... Sorry i have not been around things have been a bit crazy... God I dont even know where to begin. Well Trisha never got out on the 27th she had to stay for another 2 weeks. 2 weeks after that she went for her first hearing. They told her that she had 3 months to comply with everything on a list that they gave her. You know appartment, stable job, some other things. Mommy Days : post hearing... For the first week she was always on time to see the girls. Trisha seemed to be be doing alright, untill one day megan got scared by her and ran to me. The next mommy day she never showed, and didnt call. I called her no answer, i left a message. I called the worker and told her she didnt show. Two days later I am at work and about 11 or so i get a call from the worker, trisha had killed herself. I guess Megan running to me made her snap or something. There was no note, I really hope it wasnt my fault. The girls are doing ok, I still have them... I am glad that the girls didnt understand what was going on. Or at the least I hope they didnt... I tried to explain that god needed her to help with the kids up there. Hehehe... Hayley asked if she could go to gods playtime. I almost lost it. Its taken me this long to get over it myself. I am conflicted, if i would have forgiven her for cheating the second time none of this would have happend. Trisha and I would be married and the girls would have there mother. Am I a bad person... I am in the process of adopting the girls, and about that i couldnt be happier, and that makes me feel guilty. Its funny what having kids can do. One day your thinking of getting a boat the next you have 2 kids and the thought of a boat is laughable. Here is a bright star... I don't have the nanny, she kinda turned into my very serious girlfriend that lives with me. Last week she called and quit the agency... I was in the mall the other day and relised I was looking at engagement rings again. Its funny how somethings work out. let me tell you if not for Ashly and my Mother. I think i would have lost my mind with all this. What do I tell the girls when they get older about there mother. __________________ I reject your reality, and substitute my own.