Psycho
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ten years ago, age nine. (April 24, 1996) Third Grade, I liked that one quite a bit. I had friends at school, but in the summer I felt that I didn't have too many friends (didn't hang out with the few neighbors that were my age)
five years ago, (April 24, 2001) age fourteen. eight grade. Within a few weeks from now, I was going on a school field trip to washington D.C. for 3 days, which I was excited for. That, along with high school was really only what I had going for me (got accepted into a private high school). Around this time, I began to feel depressed and hated school. I felt I was being trapped by the other kids at school, because some of them would become high school dropouts (and they have) , others would just settle for whatever and live a typical lower middle class life, never leaving their comfort zone. I wanted more than that, I wanted to leave behind what I knew and make change in the world and myself (hence, went to the academically rigorous high school). I had quite a bit of ambition. My career aspirations were to be a record producer and work in the music industry; or something in the federal government (though not a politician).
(inserting a now, because from reading previous posts, I don't know how everyone is today).
I'm a freshman at a very small (1400 students), smart, private liberal arts college. I feel that I do belong here but I don't know why.. I'm still undecided for a major, but something in the social sciences. The other college posters here seem to have a firmer grasp of what they'd like to major in, but I'm not one to make commitments quickly.
I occasionally question if the debt that I'm going into is worth it (as opposed to attending a cheap public school near home, saving about $30 k), but most of the time, I remind myself of the opportunities here and reaffirm to myself to continue.
I see a few different career paths in front of me for the next five to ten years.
- Physchology/anthro/soc, getting a Masters and studying how technology and the internet affects our lives: either on a socitial (more anthro/soc scale) approach or on an individual level, relating to a person's attention span, methods of communication with other people, how has the internet affected an individual, particularly on communication, sex and the mind. If I go with this last point, I'd probably end up with a PhD and a practice for teenagers.
- Public Policy/urban development:
- Either getting a Masters and working either for the state/local government or own small private business either public transportation (or private transportation) and revitalize urban neighborhoods while keeping the cost of living there low enough so that lower income residents can continue to live there and even use this increased capital coming into the neighborhood to better their lives, so that the poverty doesn't merely shift into the suburbs.
- Poly Science
Working for the US State Department or Fed. govt. bureaucracy, the UN, or a NGO (non-govt org.) working in international affairs and diplomacy; utilizing my French.
- education/creative.
- Teaching social studies to junior high students and inspiring them. During my side time, I would find it pretty cool to have something published: either a book of poetry, short fiction, or have a filmscript manifested into a small film. At the school, I'd also be heavily involved with extracurriculars, because for me, it made me appreciate school more.
Regardless of the career, I'd live in an urban area (Because, well, I detest the suburbs and the rural areas a bit too), maybe getting married, maybe not; definitely travel for a bit (where: nearly anywhere, seriously; either for a few months backpacking, or living there for a year or two frugally).
To be honest, I don't care about what luxury goods I'd have. Seriously, I'd like to think I would be satisfied with running hot water everyday in a shower; maybe high speed internet, and structurally safe housing.
I hope to have a good circle of friends and remain on good terms with family, and of course, my health...
Perhaps I see things too concrete. I've always heard life has so many uncertainities, but I don't know how the past curveballs thrown at me have an impact or not, and to what extent.
The job market is so fluent, so one probably has to change professions and fields somewhat often, so who knows, maybe I'll end up doing a couple of these.
Regards,
will.
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