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Yup, I still feel the same way and the answer is even simpler for me to express than it was a year ago: no, I don't like to be needed. Whether it's fair that I should feel this way or not, needy people threaten the stability of the way I choose to live. Being needy is an old addiction of mine, and as much as I like to think I've been completely rehabilitated... it scares the crap out of me to go anywhere near it. I'm rather intolerant of neediness because of this. I'm even more intolerant of people who try to convince me that it's okay to be a little bit needy sometimes, because if I want to go down that road (even a little bit), I'll choose to do it myself thank you.
Of course, I don't believe that intolerance based on fear is a good thing, by any means. My emotional health and security just heavily outweigh that particular belief right now. I hope that in time I can reconcile these two things.
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"I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. Twenty-six times I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed."
(Michael Jordan)
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