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pan6467 · 03-20-2006, 01:04 PM

Well today at 11 AM I marked exactly 7 years bet free. It is weird to see the growth of myself and what and whom I have become since.

I have a wonderful lady in my life, the very lovely and gracious Ms. Lucy

. A job that while testing and have had a scare at, I can go to smiling and leave smiling every night. I have a house I'm trying hard to get... some days looks like I'll get it some days looks like I won't.

I have great friends in my life now, true friends that if I call and need something they are here in minutes regardless of the time of day. They know also that I am there for them.

After a health scare last October, I am in excellent health. The Sarcoidosis flares up at times and I am in some discomfort but I'm going on 39, not young like I used to be, going to have some aches and pains.

Financially, while I still struggle, I have never been in better financial shape with decent credit and I find I am doing better than I want to believe.

The conscious and subconscious self destruction that I used to take myself through has given way to a true inner peace and understanding of who I am ...... and to be honest, I like who I am.

I have gotten rid of most of the negativity in my life (although I am still a political animal, which is a release for me).

I have a great dog, DinkyDawg, who is my angel and while she has the chihuahua Napoleanic complex and attitude, when I look into her eyes and I see that total 100% unconditional love and acceptance, it is one of the very few things make me happy when in a funk or can show me how great my life truly is today.

Life doesn't get better. In these 7 years I have truly learned that it isn't what you have or how many toys you will die with for heirs to fight over, it isn't anything materialistic....... Life gets better, and is at it's best when you have true love in your life, when you are helping others by sharing your experience strength and hope, when you are surrounded by people who truly care, and when you accept that life is all about sharing and helping others.

Life is grand this day, and I thank my God for allowing me to have it, for those who love me and for myself for finally accepting, acknowledging and appreciating all that I have.

03-20-2006, 01:04 PM	#1 (permalink)
pan6467 Lennonite Priest Location: Mansfield, Ohio USA	7th Anniversary of a bet free life...... Well today at 11 AM I marked exactly 7 years bet free. It is weird to see the growth of myself and what and whom I have become since. I have a wonderful lady in my life, the very lovely and gracious Ms. Lucy . A job that while testing and have had a scare at, I can go to smiling and leave smiling every night. I have a house I'm trying hard to get... some days looks like I'll get it some days looks like I won't. I have great friends in my life now, true friends that if I call and need something they are here in minutes regardless of the time of day. They know also that I am there for them. After a health scare last October, I am in excellent health. The Sarcoidosis flares up at times and I am in some discomfort but I'm going on 39, not young like I used to be, going to have some aches and pains. Financially, while I still struggle, I have never been in better financial shape with decent credit and I find I am doing better than I want to believe. The conscious and subconscious self destruction that I used to take myself through has given way to a true inner peace and understanding of who I am ...... and to be honest, I like who I am. I have gotten rid of most of the negativity in my life (although I am still a political animal, which is a release for me). I have a great dog, DinkyDawg, who is my angel and while she has the chihuahua Napoleanic complex and attitude, when I look into her eyes and I see that total 100% unconditional love and acceptance, it is one of the very few things make me happy when in a funk or can show me how great my life truly is today. Life doesn't get better. In these 7 years I have truly learned that it isn't what you have or how many toys you will die with for heirs to fight over, it isn't anything materialistic....... Life gets better, and is at it's best when you have true love in your life, when you are helping others by sharing your experience strength and hope, when you are surrounded by people who truly care, and when you accept that life is all about sharing and helping others. *Life is grand this day, and I thank my God for allowing me to have it, for those who love me and for myself for finally accepting, acknowledging and appreciating* all that I have.** __________________ I just love people who use the excuse "I use/do this because I LOVE the feeling/joy/happiness it brings me" and expect you to be ok with that as you watch them destroy their life blindly following. My response is, "I like to put forks in an eletrical socket, just LOVE that feeling, can't ever get enough of it, so will you let me put this copper fork in that electric socket?"