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Well, for one, she's fully aware that I'm not sure about things and is willing to give it a shot anyways. I realize that I do need to completely make up my mind about pursuing this.
To SirLance, you're right. Something is scaring me, and I don't know what. For one, I'm very used to relationships where sex is right up-front and centre what it's all about. Another thing I think is that I'm going to be graduating university next year, and I don't know where that's going to take me. Maybe I'm looking into that too hard.
Either way, I think I had convinced myself that it was a lack of physical attraction as an easy way out from a situation that was good but I wasn't entirely comfortable with and I didn't know why. I do suspect that stress from school/money/life in general plays a good part in that.
Another part of why I think I was thinking physical attraction is because she, well, really likes sex. I think I might just be in a low-libido spell right now, but I can't keep up.
To savvypup, I agree that if pity were my reason for giving it another shot then it would be a really really bad situation. That's not it though. It's more like I thought I knew what I wanted (out), and then soon after I started to think I had made a really bad mistake. I've never had that feeling after breaking up with someone before...
We've been way more open about things recently too, in particular how we're both feeling about things. This didn't really exist much last time around. I hope I'm not making a huge mistake doing this, but I think I'm going to give it another shot and make sure to keep everything that we're feeling completely in the open. That way, if things aren't working, we'll both be aware of the situation and can decide where to go from there.
Well, I'm going to go finish up a lab report due in the morning and keep pondering this. Thank you everyone for your input and concern.
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