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Sometimes I think I'd like to lose every memory of everything in my personal life prior to about six years ago, save childhood memories of Sissy and Katie. The rest I'd be better without.
New things tend to be, for me, as likely to bring pain as they are pleasure. I mostly prefer to stick with the comfortable and familiar, letting novelty come from new variations of what I'm already safely doing. I've seen hundreds of movies, but I can get novelty from seeing a new one. Safety and novelty together. I've read thousands of books, but I can get novelty with each new one. I've been trying to move out my comfort zone. It's been slow and difficult, and so far all it's brought me is discomfort. I'm hoping I'll at some point get to where I can get the pleasure from others seem to.
Gilda
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