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I don't know how I missed this thread before. I've had CSP and HSP on several different occasions each. I found that they are directly related to two things: 1) Stress. Physical or mental stress building over a long period of time can kinda throw me off every once in a while. 2) A fundamental disconnect. Several times I have felt a fundamental disconnect from reality. The first time was when my best friend was shot in the face, and the second was when I discovered that I was beginning to develop dissociative disorder. Both cases led to CSP and HSP respectively.
The first situation was very simple. I awoke early in the morning to find that I was motionless. I was completely unable to move. Unfortunately, I was unable to calm myself initially, so I really freaked. I was unable to move for what I believe was maybe 2-3 minutes. It took me a few hours to calm down and feel comfortable enough to go to sleep. I was disturbed, but simply chalked it up to stress and was able to control it later one
The second situation was a bit more freaky. I found out later that I was developing depersonalization disorder, but was able to head it off at the pass (why couldn't I get dissociative fugue?). Anyway, I was feeling a serious disconnect from reality and it was really starting to negatively effect my life. One evening I had drifted off to sleep in the most comfortable chair in the world, and I woke with a start to a very loud noise. I opened my eyes to see distortions in the room. There were dark spots here and there, and they moved slowly. The source of the noise seemed to be a slammed door, but I had left the door closed before sitting to read. I believed that I was having a religious experience at first (a strange first reaction), but it was only a sense, as I was completely terrified. As I tried to move, I found that I was as if bound. I felt pressure across my abdomen and neck. Since then I've not fallen asleep in the chair.
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