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Ever get the feeling that youre not alive? that youre not really here? youre stuck in automatic?
I do.
I have to look at my hands and snap back to reality, to realise that this is me, I am here, this is my world and I am in control of how I can react to it, this is my life and I am alive.
I have the need to feel, to be able to feel something, anything, to keep me from the "automatic" stages. So I think about whether or not it would hurt if I hurl myself out of my car at 100km/h, and seriously consider doing it, just to be able to feel it, to know that it hurts, so that I can have the experience to know that yes, its true, it does hurt, and all those stories that people tell you about being hurt by falling out of cars at high speeds is true.
It does hurt.
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"Asking a bomb squad if an old bomb is still "real" is not the best thing to do if you want to save it." - denim
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