Questioning my motives for attraction.
Recently I've felt like perhaps there's reason to question why I'm attracted to certain types of girls, and why I don't get on with others.
I want, more than anything, to be a protector to the girls I am with. It has drawn me to certain physical traits. I perfer a woman who is skinny and/or short, someone who could be called "frail." Beyond physical traits, I don't seem to jive well with strong, independant women; my instinct is to want to guard them, and they seem to be repelled by that. It's not that I am a big guy. I am tall, but thin. Honestly, physically I doubt I could do well to fight off some kind of attacker. Still I think the idea that I would do anything to keep the woman I love safe (whether that is physically or emotionally) is the most romantic thing there is. Therefore, I look for woman who need the safety and dogged loyalty I would offer.
I am just concerened that I look for a kind of weakness in the women I am interested in. I wonder if that makes my motives wrong and ultimately not the best for the girls I get involved with. Shouldn't I want them to be strong and self-reliant?
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Here are some phrases I'd like to be able to say, in all honesty, before I die.
"That's it, send out the ninjas!"
"So then I had to kill my way to the second floor."
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