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Happiness is not a constant state of mind or emotion. I’m happy when I’m happy and sad when I’m sad, and so on. I let myself feel without allowing it to steal my joy, at least, this is what I strive towards. However, I am content and fulfilled.
I consider my life fruitful. I don’t look at life and say, “I have all these things but I wish I had this now and I can’t have it.” I don’t compare one person’s happiness to my own. I don’t have expectations of what happy is “supposed” to look like necessarily for me.
I do know what happiness does not feel like and does not look like. I know life will change, and I am willing to be flexible with those changes, even if sometimes it’s hard, that doesn’t mean that the outcome won’t be an achievement.
Relationships are hard work and people transition and experience seasons in their own personal lives and selves. I knew when I got married that we would both change and grow with each other. I’ve been through a lot so I am at a place in my life where I feel at peace, finally.
I adore my husband and appreciate so deeply his love for me, and his understanding of me. I am close with my daughter, and she knows I love her. I am active in my church and advocacy work, artistic endeavors, singing in a gospel group and being involved in ministry work. All of these things bring me much fulfillment.
I think the key is doing everything I am called to do through the divine relationship I have with my Lord. Everything else is blessings, answered prayers and protection.
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