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Originally Posted by JinnKai
I, too, get the adrenaline rush when I feel something 'broken' and it works very well for my personality and my career. If it's not going my way, I'll try 1000 ways under the sun to fix it, and then a few hundred other last ditch efforts before I even think about slowing down.
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Like JinnKai and Raeanna, problems usually get me all fired up.. I want to jump on them and go nuts solving them, since it's almost like a game or puzzle to me. Relationship problems especially get me excited about finding an solution (much to my SO's dismay, since he prefers a more balanced approach). The only time I *don't* get excited about solving a problem is when it relates to my schoolwork!
e.g. writing a paper or grant proposal, especially now that I am in heavy PhD work and it sucks the life out of me on some days.
But even with my energy about solving problems, I don't think I'm a big optimist these days. As most people know here, I do have a tendency to get sucked into negative thinking. This negativity has only become an issue in the last 5-6 years... before that I was pretty damn optimistic most of the time. I guess some heavy doses of reality hit me upside the head in my early 20s, conditioning me to think differently about the world after that.
In the last year or two I have worked hard to fight my negative thoughts and at least become more balanced, mostly through regular counseling and being in a really great relationship.
I'll probably never become brightly positive about everything again, and I don't think I want to. But I'd like to find a place somewhere just right of the midline, so I can be a tiny bit optimistic but not needing reality checks to keep my feet on the ground.