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If Sarah didn’t love you and want you, then this whole situation would have been completely different. I could never get over Sarah because I knew that your relationship with her, even though not physically was cheating, was inappropriate. I knew how she felt about you the whole time and I could never deal with how you went clubbing, drinking, freak dancing, leaning on each other at the subway, acting so people are telling you that you make a cute couple with her (showing it’s more than just friendly), and being invited to sleep in her bed when I knew she was trying to be more than friends the whole time and you acted like nothing was going on and she was just a friend. As you’ve said, she never crossed the line, but Sim, all that means is that she didn’t cross your line and that is something you could never understand. My line is not just sex, and your line is obviously only physical. So to you, since nothing physical happened with her (physical as in sex and kissing, etc. because even though there was grinding and hugging, that doesn’t count to you), you didn’t do anything wrong and it’s all my bad for over reacting, but to me, you were inappropriate in the relationship with her the whole time. You could never understand that my problem with Sarah was that she was WAY TOO close to you. She wanted you, still wants you probably, and you could never see that that was the problem for me. To me, if there’s someone outside of a relationship that is being too cozy like that with one of the members in the relationship, then the person in the relationship needs to back off and make their friend know that acting like that isn’t okay. I could not understand why you never did that. Why you wanted to be her date to the Christmas party, why you went drinking with her, why you would stay at her apartment. I do not think you did your job of keeping Sarah as just a friend, even though nothing physical, because she was not just being your friend. I have told you before, yes Sim, I know you aren’t physically cheating, and you never thought about that. You said you weren’t cheating, and that was the end of it for you. I think the people on the TFP hit it right on the nose with emotional cheating. After reflection, I know that is exactly how I feel. You could never give me what I wanted because you were giving in to her wanting you. My mom said that you were keeping your options open acting the way you did with her, which I think is true. I hope in the future you either don’t tell your girlfriend about the girls you wander about to save them the heartache of never knowing who you really want and that you keep friendships strictly friendly once you are in a relationship. Even though I’m insecure and that made it worse, your actions with Sarah were wrong. My insecurities are about cheating, because as you know I've been there. This situation with her certainly doesn't help me regain any confidence in men in that aspect, but oh well. I hope you can be better when it comes to other women outside your relationships because it’s not fair to your relationships to keep Sarah the way you have. Figure Sarah out, or say goodbye to any romantic thoughts of her and make sure she feels the same before you start acting like you have a platonic relationship. Your relationship with her has ruined relationships she has had and it’s helped to ruin ours. I think you should reevaluate your “friendship” with her before you attempt to date someone else.
I'm not going to tell you that I dont care if you go to the dance with her. I'm not going to call because it wont matter if i do, the situation is still the same: Sarah is still there, wanting to be with you, and i am still here, hurting because of your relationship with her. You are right though, Sim, I am trying to get over you. I am still living my life just as you should be.
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