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jth · 01-16-2006, 09:04 AM

I have....

Stress of Graduate school
Mounting Student Loan debt because I am studying internationaly
thousands (probably, I haven't checked) away from my friends and home that I didn't want to leave
Serious weight problems
No relationships with the opposite sex to speak of for probably the last 8 years
A bad ankle that I twisted the other night

am I happy?

Yes.

Might sound odd and twisted. But I taught myself that almost all of those things are superficial things that can be resolved when the time comes to resolve them. I am creatively and spiritually fullfilled. Despite the fact that when it coems to money I will never have any to speak of, and probably will always be on the edge of the poverty line for the next 10 years I know that it will work out. Despite being so far away from the majority of my loved ones, I know how they are doing and that they are proud of my for accomplishing my goals.

I could do a better list other then negative.

I am creative and energized in my profession (music)
I am respected and encouraged at every turn
I live with my older Brother and his wife which is a very supportive environment
I have amazing friends and a strong relationshipship (although sometimes annoying) with my Parents
I have a talent for teaching people about the joy of music allowing me to share my own pleasure in the art
I have a chair with wheels on it (always wanted one of those)
I am charismatic and make friends easily

I have goals, I think that's important. I'm working on my Masters in Jazz guitar at one of the absolute top schools in the world to study at. My talent and hard work got me a 4.0 last semester because I am focused on that. It makes me happy, and I feel good about it. I wake up in the morning and for a brief period perhaps somewhere in the day money woes bug me or put some stress on my plate. But I know that will go away, money isn't everything and personal happiness in whatever form is something that should be paramount.

My weight has probably been the only catch that makes me unhappy in any respect. But I beat myself up about it for to long and finally realized that it is what it is and that when I am ready I will remove it from my mindskype.

I think that it's impossible for everyone to be happy all the time. I'm sure that if you look hard enough you'll find happiness if you stop focusing on the fact that you are unhappy. In the end you might not be as unhappy as you think you are.

01-16-2006, 09:04 AM	#29 (permalink)
jth Insane Location: HRM	I have.... Stress of Graduate school Mounting Student Loan debt because I am studying internationaly thousands (probably, I haven't checked) away from my friends and home that I didn't want to leave Serious weight problems No relationships with the opposite sex to speak of for probably the last 8 years A bad ankle that I twisted the other night am I happy? Yes. Might sound odd and twisted. But I taught myself that almost all of those things are superficial things that can be resolved when the time comes to resolve them. I am creatively and spiritually fullfilled. Despite the fact that when it coems to money I will never have any to speak of, and probably will always be on the edge of the poverty line for the next 10 years I know that it will work out. Despite being so far away from the majority of my loved ones, I know how they are doing and that they are proud of my for accomplishing my goals. I could do a better list other then negative. I am creative and energized in my profession (music) I am respected and encouraged at every turn I live with my older Brother and his wife which is a very supportive environment I have amazing friends and a strong relationshipship (although sometimes annoying) with my Parents I have a talent for teaching people about the joy of music allowing me to share my own pleasure in the art I have a chair with wheels on it (always wanted one of those) I am charismatic and make friends easily I have goals, I think that's important. I'm working on my Masters in Jazz guitar at one of the absolute top schools in the world to study at. My talent and hard work got me a 4.0 last semester because I am focused on that. It makes me happy, and I feel good about it. I wake up in the morning and for a brief period perhaps somewhere in the day money woes bug me or put some stress on my plate. But I know that will go away, money isn't everything and personal happiness in whatever form is something that should be paramount. My weight has probably been the only catch that makes me unhappy in any respect. But I beat myself up about it for to long and finally realized that it is what it is and that when I am ready I will remove it from my mindskype. I think that it's impossible for everyone to be happy all the time. I'm sure that if you look hard enough you'll find happiness if you stop focusing on the fact that you are unhappy. In the end you might not be as unhappy as you think you are.