Well I have
- a string of failed and stalled relationships and no one in the world that loves me
- a lot of debt, a broken down car, and I live in a small one room apartment that that backs onto a pasta shop
- a broken up family I cant really stand to spend any time with any of them
- a lot of books I havent read
- a lack of any real talent, charisma or motivation. A low level job with I am not especially good at and for which I dont get paid very much
- an ex girlfriend who I still talk to online - and who I like more than she likes me
- a longing for religion, and a desperation to believe that I cannot fulfil
- additionally, I am physically ugly and grossly overweight
Am I happy?
Not especially, but I feel a lot better than I used to
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"Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate,
for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing
hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."
The Gospel of Thomas
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