simivin

Thanks abaya, and no, you weren't hurtful. I understand completely and think that is very accurate. I don't think anyone -- even Cheery -- understands how truly guilty and upset I have felt for the damage I have done to this relationship and how much hurt I have caused her. I am largely responsible for ruining what should have been a great relationship, and for hurting the beautiful person that Cheery is.

I would have given anything to have had things with Sarah figured out before-hand. I would give anything to figure things out with me before-hand. I would give anything to go back 10 months and see what our relationship would have been like before insecurity undermined our efforts from the beginning. I would give anything to go back three weeks, make different decisions about hanging out with Sarah (even though there was nothing there), and talk with Cheery about things in person -- and do things better or right. And was Sarah worth it? No. And I won't make that mistake again in the future. But you're right -- "too much damage has already been done." At least now Cheery can find someone without such baggage and who can give her what she deserves. What else is really left to say?