Can you explain how your fear of confrontation has shaped your political views?
Also, I second (third, fourth?) the opinions that you should get yourself to therapy. I say this as someone who has gone to therapy for 2+ years, and benefited greatly from it. There is really nothing to lose, and so much to gain. Do yourself and everyone else in your life a favor (I say that with humility, because I have only seen how my lack of therapy hurt people around me) and sign up for some weekly counseling. Take strength in the fact that you are far from being alone in trying counseling. I respect people far more if I know they have tried to improve themselves in this manner.
for therapy!