Talk about Messed up Relatioships!!!
Alright, so I spent 3 years, 3 months in one relationship that ended when she returned to work and decided to start dating my friend and dump me after they started dating. Make matters worse, we had had a child together. However that is something dealt wiht and not an issue in my life anymore.
2 weeks after that, The rebound relationship. That lasted all of a month. Then there were several random girls that I was dating on an open relationship basis. Once again not the messed up part.
Currently I have been seing this girl for 5 weeks now. It's not an open relationship, and we both like eachother. Things are pretty good between us, we have great trust, communication and respect for eachother. What's messed up with that, nothing...the part that is messed up, and i am sorry for dragging htis out and dangling the fish line, but when we started dating she was 7 weeks pregnant. Really doesn't bother me, cause I have a kid, I have gone through that, and I am seeing her cause of who she is. Well, 2 weeks into the relationship I had gone up to Calgary to visit my sister. She was going up to go see Lisa Lashes. Well she went up with the Father of the child. She needed to tell him, and talk with him to see if he was going to be involved as the father. She didn't tell him about us though, so when we all hooked up, it was walking on eggshells. Well, it accidentally slipped out when I was tlaking with the guy, and she got aangry with me, and all hell broke lose. After getting back into the city though, things got worked out, she apologised for putting me in that situation, and such.
So now, at this point, things are going good, except that she is going ot be most likely moving 3 hours away in a few months and living wiht hte father of the child. Now, I don't know about you, but it's messed up. Anyways, where the hell does that leave everything? The scary part of this all is we are continuing to see eachother, even though we both know it's doomed, and saying, alot can happen in 4 months. Well, aside from holding onto a sliver, this really has disaster written all over it, and no matter what there will be at least one person that gets hurt.
I know what should be done, and that it should be ended now before it gets to involved, but I just don't want to. I am finiding myself willing to go through pain if I have to for this girl. Am I wrong for wanting this?
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