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Cynthetiq · 12-07-2005, 11:48 AM

She's dead and I'm avoiding the subject...Well not really, I'd like to try to but it's not all that possible.

Grandma passed on Saturday Dec 3 morning. I got the notice when I was at the market buying groceries for my Birthday Surprise Dinner with Ninde, my best friend.

I was a little surreal to be in the same city as the rest of the family for an event but not to be with them. I demured visiting them unless Dad really needed my support.

My sister, she didn't really mention anything to dad. She just avoided the subject all together. I on the other hand was quite straight up forward with him in the way that I am normally. I let him know that if he needed me to be there for him he didn't have to say the words, "I need you." He could just say, "It would be nice..." Now why did I pose it as such? Because I am my father's son. I like him will not ask for help. It's not in my nature to ask for help from someone especially in times of distress. So I told him, just say those words and I'll know you want me to be with you.

I get a bereavement day from work. Unfortunately I am not attending the services on Thursday. I thought maybe there's a small chance I'd go over the weekend, but it's very very slim since I do have lots of other obligations.

At least I let him know that I don't have to use the bereavement day to go to the graveside, I can use it to hang out with him.

thanks everyone for your well wishes and thoughts.

12-07-2005, 11:48 AM	#46 (permalink)
Cynthetiq Tilted Cat Head Administrator Location: Manhattan, NY	She's dead and I'm avoiding the subject...Well not really, I'd like to try to but it's not all that possible. Grandma passed on Saturday Dec 3 morning. I got the notice when I was at the market buying groceries for my Birthday Surprise Dinner with Ninde, my best friend. I was a little surreal to be in the same city as the rest of the family for an event but not to be with them. I demured visiting them unless Dad really needed my support. My sister, she didn't really mention anything to dad. She just avoided the subject all together. I on the other hand was quite straight up forward with him in the way that I am normally. I let him know that if he needed me to be there for him he didn't have to say the words, "I need you." He could just say, "It would be nice..." Now why did I pose it as such? Because I am my father's son. I like him will not ask for help. It's not in my nature to ask for help from someone especially in times of distress. So I told him, just say those words and I'll know you want me to be with you. I get a bereavement day from work. Unfortunately I am not attending the services on Thursday. I thought maybe there's a small chance I'd go over the weekend, but it's very very slim since I do have lots of other obligations. At least I let him know that I don't have to use the bereavement day to go to the graveside, I can use it to hang out with him. thanks everyone for your well wishes and thoughts. __________________ I don't care if you are black, white, purple, green, Chinese, Japanese, Korean, hippie, cop, bum, admin, user, English, Irish, French, Catholic, Protestant, Jewish, Buddhist, Muslim, indian, cowboy, tall, short, fat, skinny, emo, punk, mod, rocker, straight, gay, lesbian, jock, nerd, geek, Democrat, Republican, Libertarian, Independent, driver, pedestrian, or bicyclist, either you're an asshole or you're not. What's the best nation in the world? DO-NATION!