It did change me in a couple of ways. First, I could stop lying about having done it! LOL. Second, I felt like it was a rite of passage into another phase of my life. I don't know that I can put it quite into words. I gained a degree of confidence that I didn't have before; I wasn't so desparate, I guess. Much like the first beer I had or the first curse word I uttered, it was a mark in the timeline of my fall from innocence. Ultimately, it was just one more thing I had to be forgiven for when I became a Christian.
I can say this, though--the women I was with afterward seemed to know that I was "experienced," and I think it was that confidence I spoke of coming through.
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