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Originally Posted by Stiltzkin
This is going way back to the first couple of posts, about the "negatives" you described, as in the awkwardness that you would've had to face had you gotten up to ask a waiter to serve you. Ask yourself this: "What makes me so special that I should be protected from having to deal with these 'negatives'?"
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Nothing. I don't think I am special and deserving of better treatment than others. I just wanted to be treated the same as all of the others in the restaurant who had been served.
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You said yourself that if Sissy or Grace were there, either one of them would have been able to handle the situation and get some service. She would've had to face those same "negavites" that you described.
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You misunderstand. My point was that they would have known how to handle the situation so as to get service without facing those negatives that were there for me, but I didn't know how to do that.
The negatives that are there for me in that situation aren't there for them. That was my point.
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Millions of people face these "negatives" every day, so why shouldn't you? What sets you apart?
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What sets me apart is a painful shyness that makes social interaction emotionally very difficult for me. In my case, it's a severe form of social anxiety. This is what prompted me to start this thread I don't
want to be set apart. I know I'm not deserving of better treatment than others. With the exception of my friends and family, I want to fit in and not be noticed, except to the degree that it's necessary to deal with others as a part of their or my jobs. I am thus uncomfortable, very uncomfortable when things don't work the way I expect them to, and I'm forced to deal with other people I don't know, by myself, in a public place.
I am fortunate that I have Grace and Sissy to act as a shield and a conduit to the world for me. They do this because they love me and want to protect me from harm, even when that harm is something I'm only imagining.
Gilda