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wow, I almost feel like I can't say much here because anyone who knows me personally says I am generally happy with myself, and grew up that way. But last year I became depressed because of some life events and some growing expirences, and it was all the worse because I was used to being content.
Being at the bottom of my personal well has taught me that the climb upward is murderous and exhausting. Many people don't even bother, or can't see the way up because it is that hard. It has taken me since December of 04, twelve months of really WANTING to feel better, and I have only recently found some mastery over this mysterios depressiveness.
The gals above are right. It is a massive combination of all of the above. Forcing yourself to smile, to do things you enjoy, and telling yourself over and over again that you want to be happy. That you are beautiful. That you are loved.
Alos, I found that some of my depression was bio-chemical in nature. When I sat around and was lazy I became more depressed. Yet, when I took a walk or did some chores, or did something for someone else, it was momentarily kicked. Eating healthy natural stuff and steering away from "comfort foods" also helped me.
This may or may not apply to you but my religious beleifs also were key to getting out of the well. If you are Christian I would try reading "Captivating" by John and Stasi Elderdge (sp-lastname?) I sat there and saw my own hurts, ego, and depressive state laid out before me with some powerful insight into understanding why it was there and how it could be overcome.
I hope you reach the top of the well. Good Luck.
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