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-Ever- · 11-29-2005, 01:33 PM

Thanks for showing interest Marvelous Marv.

There really isn't a ton to update I guess. I'm basically pretty sure she's been loyal to me as far as not seeing other people which is nice. We're basically broken up though the way I look at it. While she doesn't like "labels" right now, we hung out for the first time this weekend in about a month and most of it wasn't even together. I still love her to death and am still in love with her, but I really can't do anything about it so it's a crap situation.

I think she's just basically over me for the time being. One nice thing (in a not-so-nice kind of way) is that I've given 110% during this whole situation from constantly offering to hang out, to being in good contact, to being the one to start most about-us, how-we're-doing conversations. See, I hate regrets and didn't want to walk away from this situation knowing that I could maybe have done more to fix it even though it's at risk of getting me even more hurt. I've decided that she's well worth this risk though and I'm now at a type of ease knowing that I did all I could to make things right. The hard part is that I feel like I'm so close from getting her back. I do know that she still loves me and that she enjoys who I am, but I feel like she's purposely denying her impulses of wanting to be with me for the wrong reasons. I fear that she feels she's the victim of something that I really haven't done to her and have tried so hard to prove that I'm still the man she used to be in love with. She still smiles at me the same, hugs me the same, and laughs with me the same, but there's just something there that seems to be purposely blocking me out. Man I love the girl and kills me to feel that she's so close but unnesecessairly so far... :\

Well that's that. Of course there's probably things I'm leaving out, but that's how I feel right about now. Things are quite bitter sweet as I'm moving on and getting over the regular depression and onto the reality of things.

11-29-2005, 01:33 PM	#48 (permalink)
-Ever- Junkie Location: San Francisco	Thanks for showing interest Marvelous Marv. There really isn't a ton to update I guess. I'm basically pretty sure she's been loyal to me as far as not seeing other people which is nice. We're basically broken up though the way I look at it. While she doesn't like "labels" right now, we hung out for the first time this weekend in about a month and most of it wasn't even together. I still love her to death and am still in love with her, but I really can't do anything about it so it's a crap situation. I think she's just basically over me for the time being. One nice thing (in a not-so-nice kind of way) is that I've given 110% during this whole situation from constantly offering to hang out, to being in good contact, to being the one to start most about-us, how-we're-doing conversations. See, I hate regrets and didn't want to walk away from this situation knowing that I could maybe have done more to fix it even though it's at risk of getting me even more hurt. I've decided that she's well worth this risk though and I'm now at a type of ease knowing that I did all I could to make things right. The hard part is that I feel like I'm so close from getting her back. I do know that she still loves me and that she enjoys who I am, but I feel like she's purposely denying her impulses of wanting to be with me for the wrong reasons. I fear that she feels she's the victim of something that I really haven't done to her and have tried so hard to prove that I'm still the man she used to be in love with. She still smiles at me the same, hugs me the same, and laughs with me the same, but there's just something there that seems to be purposely blocking me out. Man I love the girl and kills me to feel that she's so close but unnesecessairly so far... :\ Well that's that. Of course there's probably things I'm leaving out, but that's how I feel right about now. Things are quite bitter sweet as I'm moving on and getting over the regular depression and onto the reality of things. __________________ Embracing the goddess energy within yourselves will bring all of you to a new understanding and valuing of life. A vision that inspires you to live and love on planet Earth. Like a priceless jewel buried in dark layers of soil and stone, Earth radiates her brilliant beauty into the caverns of space and time. Perhaps you are aware of those who watch over your home And experience of this place to visit and play with reality. You are becoming aware of yourself as a gamemaster... --Acknowledge your weaknesses--