chriswin8

Something has transpired (See below) and I was made the legal guardian of 2 little girls. A 2 year old and a 4 year old neither of them are mine. Um what do I do now?

My ex-fiance had 2 kids. And sence we where going to be wed she had papers drawn up that if something happend I would get the kids. A week before the wedding I walked in on her and some guy. keep in mind I had taken her back once already for cheating. This time I was not about to take her back and kicked her out of my house and kept the girls till she found a place. A month after she took the kids to her apartment She had a breakdown.

Here is the problem I was there when the 2 year old was born and helped take raise the 4 year old, I love both of them as if they where my own. The mother lost the kids in the CPS battle. CPS contacted me and asked me if I would take them. Now here where the choices. Have them go into the system and be split up in fauster care and be adopted, or just take them myself. And they needed an answer right then and there they had a family ready to adopt the 2 year old.

I decided to take them (yeah like i would let them go into the system and be split up), how ever I have no clue what i am really doing. It was a diffrent story when I was going to have someone to tag team with. I could have the kids for 3 months or the rest of my life, that all depends on the ex.

Now that I have had time to reflect on my answer to CPS, I am starting to freak out. I mean CPS is dropping the girls off sometime tomarrow. Its not the meterial things. I have a Stable job, a house, money is not a problem.
Its more of a question of am:
I ready for something like this?
If i am how do i know?
If I am not, is there a way to back out of this?
If i do Back out will i ever forgive myself?

Is this normal for me to be freaking out, like this?

I could use some advice, input, or anything that anyone is willing to share with me.

Should I take the mother back again?

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