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That Lil' tippler. And yes, I admit, I have been rather defensive -- because I don't think I've done anything wrong (to which someone could posit: then why would you need to feel defensive? But I digress) and also because of pressure outside of the TFP conversation(s). And yes, it was rather upsetting reading the LL posts because I feel I got ripped pretty well -- maybe I deserve it, however.
Your post a week ago helped me consider why I should even get back together. If I really cared, I would try. So maybe I was justified in breaking up with her, but I still didn't think it was fair to cut it off so soon, without giving (either of) us a chance to get on our feet again. So, I took the plunge, knowing full well that I have to face her, and her family, and increased doubts, etc. I thought it was worth it to try to make things better -- and I wished I could have gone back and changed things two Sundays ago.
And yes, there needs to be some compromise. I guess I stepped back too much hoping things would play out...but even if I hadn't yet prompted my friend to respond (at least until yesterday), I was contemplating ways for my GF and Sarah and I to hang out -- over T-giving, Christmas, whatever, where there would be an actual opportunity. So, I know, I haven't been compromising in talking to my friend or my stance on my friendship with her, but I have thought of ways to mesh things together and to include my GF, like she wanted. And maybe after your posts (and those of the other ladies), I will reevaluate how I feel about compromising my friendship itself.
I guess time will tell, as in all things. Hopefully T-giving and the next month or two will really help my GF and I out.
Sorry for getting a bit defensive. It is all rather stressful (in and esp out of TFP)...but that doesn't besmirch my appreciation for your comments (and yours Abaya, and everyone else), no matter how harsh, honest, and critical they are. Thank you.
Sim
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