She has read the TFP sometimes and she knows that I come here sometimes looking for advice. It wouldn't surprise me if she has read it (although I tried to ignore that fact in what I said).
Oh, and another possible, worthwhile thought. Ever since I've moved here, I've spent almost all my weekends with her (8 hrs of driving; she wasn't able to get a car yet). The driving sucked, but it also kept me from meeting and really getting to know people around here, so my whole friend base is gone -- except for my GF, Sarah, and the folks online, basically.
Other TFPs, feel free to chime in.
PS: And now I'm upset that I got this "ball rolling". I wish I could go back to Sunday and make different decisions. We were planning on spending T-giving and much of Christmas together, and looked forward to it as a time to get over things and reevaluate things -- so appealing, now. But now, her family has had to change Christmas tickets/plans and I certainly have little to no credibility with her family and least of all, her (since we've broken up and gotten back together before). Damn.
PPS: Interestingly enough, she had told me I could have sex with someone else, if it would ease my overthinking issues. I never wanted to because I wanted to be loyal to her and don't want to have to do that.
Last edited by simivin; 11-09-2005 at 07:51 PM..
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